Dear mama, you will be made whole, sōzō, through parenting

1 Tim 2:15a (paraphrased)

Life as a mama can be messy.

Yes, that is a picture of both my boys sobbing in my arms, one ill and the other upset, most probably due to a poorly delivered reprimand.

My journey began as a newly married woman diagnosed with lupus in 2012. I had struggled with random muscle aches (imagine running a marathon) and hair loss for the past year. The diagnosis was both a relief and the beginning of the amplification of my fears.

Thus, I began living a carefully curated life as a lupus patient for 3 years. Although I remained mostly asymptomatic due to my caution, I still constantly sought complete healing.

But nothing moved.

And then I became a mama of 1 and the aches returned. With the aches, my fears returned, and I began limiting our lives with the hope of keeping me well.

And then I became a mama of 2 and this was where my world exploded. I felt decimated by motherhood and the walls of protection increased as I fought pain, fear and illness in the midst of Covid.

But here is where the sōzō began and in 2 years’ time I would be in full remission of my lupus symptoms as I journeyed this with Jesus.

Yes, He meets us in our deepest, darkest places and brings us to the highest and brightest places- step by step.

So, if you’re a mama in pain, sleepless, confused, overwhelmed (the list could go on), can I come sit with you? Can we walk on this journey together?

We have so much to discover and learn together as we allow Jesus to speak to us in these valleys of our lives.

‘Arise my darling, my beautiful one, and come with me.
See! The winter is past, the rains are over and gone.
Show me your face, let me hear your voice;
for your voice is sweet, and your face is lovely.
Catch for us the foxes, the little foxes
that ruin the vineyards, our vineyards that are in bloom.’

Song of Songs 2: 10, 14- 15 (NIV)

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